Sunday, October 10, 2010

friends

i was out w hds, my best buds from SCB to retrolicious concert!
its pretty good, but i dun really know the songs.

Hui wants to go DDL O and we were stuck in a dilemma.
the rest were not keen, i wasnt extremely keen too.
it stuck my head to reject hui's offer n all of us can go home.
Hui doesnt look very happy. it works this way, all go or no go and happens ytd was NO GO because all of us were sweaty n tired.

it suddenly occured to me that.. i am finding an excuse.
An excuse that if the rest dun go, i can dun go without feeling guilty.
we function as a group. its either a ALL GO or NO GO, often i have to be the decision maker, always making some people upset.

i made hui upset ytd.
Suddenly out of no where - it occurs to me that my decision to acc hui shldnt be based on what the grp think, so i decided to just go w her. reen having to work, fang tired, and min feeling all hot n sweaty was not a good reason why i should not acc her.

i told hui tht all of us have different priorities in life n clubbing was not one of em, i knw she understand, m trying to be a kpo to tell her not to be upset w the other gers. m sucha big mouth sometimes, i think what i said create stupid misunderstandings, like the $50 bill, f guilty abt it.

she rebuked, saying if she knew we were at somewhere she will try her best to come even if she may not like it.

she was right, whenever i visit von, go parkway, she always make an effort to come. Did i take her too lightly, finding excuses too quickly? Yes, i am guilty of that, sorry hui, if she reads this.

so i went to DDL O with her. i felt very good, like i stay put to a friend, i have not done that for longest time. maybe i have been very selfish for many years. and i know that feels better than rejecting her. Is that what friends are for?i must really consider treating them better.

m trying my best to be a better person.

::aboutme::

Chelle - love herself, her family and her friends.